Wednesday, May 26, 2010

the waiting game

Have you ever been in the midst of transition and just felt stuck? Like even though you’re still moving, actually making it to that final destination seems as if it’s never going to happen, it’s too far off. Like you know what to expect but not when. And it kills. Somehow that becomes the focus even more so than what you planned to do and where you set out to go in the first place.

Trust. That’s where I am at right now. Choosing not to focus on what seems to be going wrong but instead continuing to trust in the promises of God while I’m waiting. Because they are true. They are perfect. They work. But only when I step back and allow them to. When I let God take the frailness of my humanity and combine it with Himself, that’s when the beauty of my own weakness is most evident. Reminds me of how the Bible talks about

“look at the lilies of the field and how they grow”
and the endless possibilities that come along with simply relying on God.* And the subsequent sustaining joy that only He can give. That’s where I’m at. And it’s beautiful.

*Matthew 6:25-34

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Frederick Buechner wrote,

"Even the saddest things can become, once we have made peace with them, a source of wisdom and strength for the journey that still lies ahead."

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

"Your faith is only as strong as the words you speak…So speak."
‘Salt and the Light’ by Sent By Ravens

Friday, April 16, 2010

I [think I] know a lot

i’m finally starting to grasp what this season of my life is all about. Not being able to do the things i had planned or expected to be doing at this point. Dealing with situations that would have me feel like i am losing my place and that things are once again upside down. The thing is i know a lot about God. A lot of head knowledge. i believe in Him for sure! But for as much as i say that i trust Him. i don’t. (At least haven’t been the way i should.) My trust has been in man or in His using man. It is here, right now, that i have to REALLY learn to trust God. In this place. Before it’s too late. Actually more like, before it costs much more, because it is never too late.